Middle of the day, class is still in progress, holding the pen in my hand I twirl it in my fingers as if I was turning the hands of the clock to speed the time. School was not the most fun-for me at least, but something, someone always made me keep going back and I couldn't help but think of her.
I turn my head to the girl next to me, normally she would have her hair up into a ponytail, however today she had her hair loose and it matched her face perfectly. Silky orange shoulder length hair brushed her face gently when she moved her head in a slight motion and I wished that she was mine. But she never noticed me like that.
The bell rang and kids were heading out the class room, I went to my locker and dropped off some of my books and took out the next set for another class. When I turn around she is right in front of me, her blue-green eyes connected with my soft brown as she smiled.
"Hey Ash, can I have the notes from Monday, I kinda miss placed mine." She smiled slightly.
"Yeah, sure." I said back to her while I handed her the book of notes.
"Thanks." She said and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
She then walked away to meet up with her other girlfriends, but I stood there watching her walk off. I wanted to tell her, I wanted her to know, that I didn't want be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy and I don't know why... ------------
Four years passed and now it's my third year in high school, I was watching t.v while my Mom fixed the kitchen until my cell phone rang.
I looked at the caller I.D and saw that it was her.
"Hello?" I answered.
I heard a sniff on the other line.
"Ash, sorry if I bothered you." She said sobbing as she was in tears.
"Misty is everything OK?" I asked in concern.
I heard her crying once again.
"Ash, can you come over I don't want to be alone right now." She begged me.
How could I say no, I told her I would be over soon and told my Mom. When I got to her house, Misty opened the door quietly until she saw it was me and then ran into my arms, guiding her inside I stroked her hair to calm her and told her everything was going to be OK. She finally told me that her boyfriend for the passed three years broke her heart when she walked in on him with one of her closet friends. How could anyone do this to her, someone she beautiful and sweet. She then looked up at me with her blue-green eyes swollen in tears, I stared at her eyes and wishing that she was mine.
When Misty finally calmed we decided to watch a movie, after almost two hours and big bag of chips she fell asleep next to me. I looked down at her sleeping peacefully and smiled to myself knowing that I helped in her time of need. Before I can get up to leave she grabbed me by my hand.
"Thanks." She said in a sleeping tone.
Even in her state she forced herself to give me a kiss on the cheek. I lefted her house and started to walk back home, during the way I couldn't stop thinking about her, I wanted to tell her, I wanted her to know that I didn't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. ------------
The next year was my last year in high school, kids were happy that they were going to finally start there lives and careers. But senior year also means the senior prom. I closed my locker and saw her walking slowly down the hallway holding her books closely.
"Hey Misty what's the madder." I asked.
She looked up at me and then gave a disappointing sigh.
"My date is sick, now I don't have anyone to go to the prom with." She said sadly.
"Well, I don't have a date." I said a bit boldly.
She looked up at me not in a questioning look, but with excitement.
"Remember that promise we made?" I reminded her grinning a bit.
She smiled. "Yes, I do, oh how can I forget!"
Yes, the promise that we made back in middle school, we promised each other that if we didn't have any dates for our senior prom that we can go together as "best friends." After we arranged everything we went together.
Prom night came and went as fast as the sunset. After everything was over I walked with her to the front door step of her house. I stared at her, she looked absolutely beautiful in the fitted halter red gem dress that sparkled with her hair. I wanted her to be mine, but she doesn't think of me that way.
Before she walked in she turned back to me. "I had such a great time Ash." She smiled.
I smiled back at her. "I did too."
"Thanks." She added and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
As she went inside I started to walk away and got into the taxi that was going to bring me home. I wanted to tell her, I wanted her know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. ------------
A day passed, school was normal, then a week, and then a month and before I can even think it was our graduation day. Everyone was in dark blue cap and gowns, it was the part of the ceremony where everyone was going to get their diploma, I heard Misty's name being called from the speakers and people clapped as she went up on stage. I watched her perfect body float like an angel when she took her diploma she looked out towards the crowd and then gave her wonder smile and continued off the stage. So many times I could have told her, I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it.
After the ceremony, friends were congratulating each other and taking pictures. I stood with my crowd of friends and hanging out with them before we were going to leave for a celebration party. I saw Misty in some tears saying bye to friends, and then I saw her coming my way, I turned to the side to pretend that I didn't notice her, when I felt her soft hand touch my shoulder I spun and hugged her tightly, she laughed as she placed her arms around my neck, I saw a tears come from her eyes and I whipped them away gently giving her a smile.
"You're my best friend, never forget that." She said softly and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
I responded by also giving her a kiss, but this one being a soft tap on her lips.
"I'll always remember."
I was close to telling her that day, I saw the light at the end of the tunnel, but it was still to far away, I wanted to tell her, I wanted her to know that I didn't want to be just friends, I loved her, but I was just too shy, and I still don't know why.
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Five years passed, and now I'm dressed in a suit in front of a church, no it's not my wedding it's hers. Misty was getting married to another man, I watched her say "I do" and saw her making her new steps in her life. Inside my heart my crying out to her, I didn't want to let her go, I wanted to be in that mans place, the man that she calls her husband, I wanted her to be mine. Before she drove away with her new partner she stopped and greeted and thanked all the people that came. I was standing on a small cliff that looked out to the horizon and felt her gently touch, I saw her in that beautiful white dress, every curve was taken in and her hair was neatly hidden in the crown veil on her head.
"You came, I so happy." She told me as I felt her head lean on my shoulder softly.
I turned to face her and hugged her tightly, feeling her response I didn't wanna let go.
"I came just for you." I answered her.
"Thank you." She said.
She then reached up to kiss me on the cheek but then stopped, I looked at her wondering what she was about to do, but before I can respond I could feel her velvet lips brushing with mine in a sweet kiss.
She then looked up at me and gave a small smile."I remembered."
"For some reason, I wouldn't think you have." I told her.
She laughed, her laugh, her smile the features of her that I had fallen in love with. She then turned and walked away to the crowd and to the arms of her husband and got into the white limo. I stood away watching her from the distance as she drove off. I wanted to tell her that I didn't want to be just friends, I loved her deeply, but I was too shy-no I was foolish, and I didn't know why. ------------
Twenty years pass, I was at work when I got a phone call, one that took the breath out of me, and actually made my heart stop in a mid pulse. The next day I arrived at her old home town, I looked down at the coffin that held my best friend. She was killed instantly in a car accident, how could have it been prevented? I thought to myself, angry at the fact that it was something that preventable and she had to leave the world in such a painful way. During the service, family members shared their thoughts and memories of Misty. I stood in the front listening to them, but continued to stare at the coffin. Then one of her sisters, Daisy I think her name was, read a dairy entry she wrote when she was in high school.
"After the graduation ceremony, I went up to him and he took me by surprise, I laughed when he spun me around, tears were falling from my eyes but he was kind enough to whip them away. Your my best friend, never forget that I said to him, and gave him a kiss on the cheek. His response was different and gave me a soft tap on my lips and said I'll always remember. At that moment I felt like I was on top of the world, every day I would stare I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I wanna tell him, I want him to know that I don't wanna be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me..I wish I did too."
My ears could believe what they were hearing, my brain didn't function right. I was such a fool, to let an angel like her go, her memorizing beautiful eyes, her smile, her body, her mind, she was perfect everything that you ever want and I let it go. She loved me, I was too shy to ask her and she loved me as much as I loved her. I felt a tear come down my face, and then another, and another, till they fell freely out of my eyes like an open faucet. "Your my best friend never forget that" I could still remember her voice echoing the memory in my mind.
"I'll never forget." I said softly and finally began to cry.