I Miss You
By: DayDreamer
Note: Well this is another JAJRN fic. It's kinda like Dreaming of You but sorta in Jame's POV... Different though!
Charcters:
James: 25
Jessie: 25
Flashback:
James: 23
Jessie: 23
A/N: We share a song by Blink182 called I Miss You.
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(I miss you, I miss you),
Hello there, the angel from my nightmare,
The shadow in the background of the morgue,
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley,
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want,
Where you can always find me,
We'll have Halloween on Christmas,
And in the night we'll wish this never ends,
We'll wish this never ends.
James sat in his desk, 10:00 AM despiesing himself more and more. He still couldn't believe that he had suggested for them to spilt up. He had come up with the idea... He himself had left her.
"I am so stupid..." he said aloud. "I left her... How could I? Am I that stupid?"
James hit his head on the desk frustrated. He hadn't even told her that he had loved her...
"Or did I?" he asked aloud. "Didn't I tell her? I don't...remember..." Suddenly he gasped as he remembered.
*Flashback*
James sighed as he watched Meowth walk down the path. He turned to Jessie. He had to tell her. He just had to. If he didn't, he would never forgive himself.
"Jessie? Can we talk?" he asked.
"Okay, James. What is it?" Jessie asked looking at him.
"Jessie... Well.... I've been meaning to tell you for a long time that..." James whispered nervously
He had to tell her. He just had to.
"What is it James?" asked Jessie.
"It's just..." 'What am I doing?' he thought to himself. 'I mean she obviously doesn't like me! She always got mad at me! I should have never even loved her... Yet... Can I help it?'
"Well I might as well come out and say it..." he muttered smiling at her. "Jessie we've been partners for such a long time haven't we?"
"Four years I think...." Jessie replied. "But what does that have anything to do with this?"
"Well.... In those four years we've been together as partners in crime, I've noticed something..." he went on, wording it as best as he could.
(I miss you, I miss you),
(I miss you, I miss you),
Where are you and I'm so sorry,
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight,
I need somebody and always,
This sick strange darkness,
Comes creeping on so haunting every time,
And as I stared I counted,
Webs from all the spiders,
Catching things and eating their insides,
Like indecision to call you,
and hear your voice of treason,
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight,
Stop this pain tonight.
"What?" asked Jessie.
"That... I... I... love... I love you..." he blurted out staring at his feet.
His heart was poudning fast. He couldn't believe it. He had said it. He looked up at her. All he saw was shock, he saw no other feeling on her face. Nothing. Just shock.
James closed his eyes and kissed her. The kiss was soft, gentle, tender but above all it was a prolonged kiss... James kissed her as long as he could without crying. But when he felt the tears on his cheeks run, he tore his lips away from her and ran down the path.
He ran and ran. He knew she would never love him but at least he had told her. He had that happy feeling that at least he had told her and had gotten over his fears... But he still couldn't stop the ache in his heart. The ache that represented the fact that she would never love him. He soon got to the next city. As he stood over the hilltop, he looked upon the city sad.
"Jessie." he whispered to himself. "I have to forget you... I have to so that this ache will go away... You won't break my heart if I never remember this... So I have to forget you too...."
*End Flashback*
"I did..." James whispered incredulously. "I did tell her. And I ran away after wards... I AM AN IDIOT!!!" he shouted angrily. "I should have never left!!!"
He hit himself harder on the desk, angry at himself.
"I have to find you Jessie. I have got to find you!"
Don't waste your time on me you're already,
The voice inside my head (I miss you, I miss you),
Don't waste your time on me you're already,
The voice inside my head (I miss you, I miss you).
***The Next Day***
James had left last night, he had started to walk since last night at 11:00 AM and hadn't stopped walking until he had arrived in the town Jessie had said she would be in, at 2:00 AM. He had rented a room in a hotel and had slept until morning. That was when he got up and looked for her. He had asked all over town and finally someone told him that she worked in a library. He went to the libray where he was told that she had a day off. He asked where she lived and was told that she slept in the apartment two blocks down. He had asked the landlord where she was and had been told she had gone off somewhere.
James kept looking around. And finally as he went into the park, he saw her.
Don't waste your time on me you're already,
The voice inside my head (I miss you, I miss you),
Don't waste your time on me you're already,
The voice inside my head (I miss you, I miss you).
She was sitting on a bench in the park. Dressed in a green skirt and a light blue shirt. He walked up to her determinedly.
"Jessie?" he said quietly.
She looked up, surprised.
"James?" she asked.
"Yes, Jessie, it's me" James replied smiling. "I had to come. I needed your answer. I can't believe that I ran off without your answer."
"James..." Jessie.
"I know what you're gonna say." James closed his eyes and looked away. "You hate me don't you?" 'Why did I even come? I mean I already know her answer don't I?
"James-" Jessie started to say.
"No, don't say anything if it's that. Just don't. I wouldn't-"
"James I-"
"I couldn't bear with the pain-"
"James I l-"
"It would hurt my heart-"
"JAMES!" Jessie nearly screamed.
"What?"
"I've been trying to tell you that I love you too." Jessie replied smiling.
"You-You do?" he asked in disbelief.
Don't waste your time on me you're already,
The voice inside my head (I miss you, I miss you),
Don't waste your time on me you're already,
The voice inside my head (I miss you, I miss you).
"Of course." Jessie stood up. "I've always loved you. When you told me I didn't have time to tell you because you ran off. I will always love you."
She kissed him. She canted her head deepening the kiss. Her tounge lingered over his as she waited for a response. He did, by running his tounge along hers. She did love him. He sighed. But soon Jessie broke the kiss.
"Say it." she demanded
"Huh?" he asked misunderstanding.'Say what?'
"Promise me you won't go away ever. I can't stand life without you. Promise me, James you won't ever leave me!" Jessie whispered hugging him close.
"I love you Jessie." he tipped her head up to his and looked down at her. "I won't ever go away. You can count on that."
Jessie smiled. James smiled back. They would always be together. James knew that. As long they loved each other their love would be forever...
(I miss you, I miss you).
(I miss you, I miss you).
(I miss you, I miss you).
(I miss you, I miss you).
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Note: Yay! I finished this one in one day! Whoo-hoo! All right! Hope ya liked this one!