'Why?'
By cultnirvana
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***Chapter 4 The Little Angel***
The wait was killing him. Hed always been an impatient person, and now,
waiting to meet the person that he was sure would become the most important
being in his life, the seconds seemed to drag like hours, each slowly making
way for the next. He was sure hed never spent a longer hour in his life.
He looked towards Misty, who was sitting about a meter from him. She had been
quiet for nearly the whole hour, staring off into the distance, no doubt thinking
about what had just happened. He again studied the face he had loved, those
features he had always become so lost within. He began to feel them work their
old magic, but the wounds she had inflicted kept him from falling again.
She sensed his eyes upon her, and for one of the rare times since they had meet
again she looked at him, staring deep into those puppy dog brown eyes. He was
a perfect picture of maturity apart from those large, innocent orbs. She had
spent many a night gazing into them, seeing the love they once held for her,
but now she wondered whether they would ever contain that emotion again. Then
she realised he was staring back into hers, intently, however she could not
understand what emotion they conveyed. They seemed so...confused.
For moments they peered into each others eyes, trying to remember the person
they had loved so much.
But a knock broke the search.
They both jumped, quickly looking away from each other, subtly blushing from
the intensity of the moment.
Misty glanced at the clock. Quarter past eight. That should be them,
she told him, nervously.
The excitement began to rise again within him, if it had ever really died down.
He began to shake slightly, unsure of what to do and what may happen. What if
his daughter refused him? What if she never accepted him as her father? What
if two years was too long? Would she even know who he was? Misty had told him
that she had told Aya about him, showed her photographs, but wasnt reality
different to a 2D image? But then if she didnt know who he was, why did
she wave at him hours before? There had to have been some recognition then.
He looked to Misty again, but she had moved. He turned to the door through which
hed first entered the apartment, and noticed her exiting, slowly closing
the door over behind her. Voices came from the hallway, one was Mistys,
the other must have been their childs.
The shaking became worse. He could barely keep his hands from quaking. The door
began to slowly open. He instantly directed his vision back to the small room,
afraid to keep his attention on the door. He heard the soft footfalls behind
him move to his left side, and Misty came back into his vision.
She looked to her side, saying, Aya, Id like you to meet someone.
The emotion was evident in her beautiful voice. This is Ash, your father.
She motioned for the little girl to come to her side, and with a gaiety of movement
she ran into her mothers arms, but stared straight into Ashs face,
her blue eyes full of joy, but also bewilderment.
Aya looked towards her mother, as if asking permission for something. Misty
just nodded, desperately trying to contain her tears. Still the same old Misty,
Ash thought, never able to allow others to see her weak. It had taken him years
to break through her facade.
She turned again to her father, and took a few steps towards him, stopping mere
inches away, her childish smile growing.
He apprehensively lifted his hand towards her face and delicately touched her
tender cheeks, then pulled his fingers through her thick hair. It felt weird.
It was his blood that ran in her veins, his DNA that made half of her. His baby.
His daughter. He could feel it in the touch.
Daddy?
It seemed like half a question, half statement, and the voice was like an angels.
She knew him, recognised him. He glanced at Misty. Her emotions had overwhelmed
her, as well, at the solitary word. Her hand covered her mouth, and new tears
dropped from her eyes.
Ash brought his attention back to his daughter, and in a sudden impulse, took
the child into his arms, holding her tightly against his chest.
Yeah. Its me. Its me.
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He carried Aya in his arms into her bedroom, setting her onto her bed, tucking
the sheets comfortably around her. Almost everything was blue, probably because
of Mistys influence upon her, and tens of Pokemon teddies lined the floor.
So, whos your favourite Pokemon? he said, looking at the
toys.
I like water Pokemon, like mummy, but Pikachu is the cutest, she
replied with that beautiful childish tone.
Oh. Ash looked at Misty, standing by the door of the bedroom, and
give her a tender grin, the first truly tender look hed directed towards
her all night. She returned it. Ash glanced back towards the teddies, picking
up a Pikachu among the bunch. He handed it to Aya, who hugged it tightly.
So why do you like Pikachu so much?
Hes yellow and has big ears. You have a Pikachu, daddy?
Well, I did. Come on, its getting late and you need to get some
sleep. Isnt that right, mummy?
Yeah, and Aya, you have to get up early to go to day-care while mummys
at work.
Ah, Misty, could I look after her tomorrow? Id love to spend a
little more time with her. We havent had much tonight.
Please mummy, could daddy mind me? The strangeness of those words
didnt diminish to him, no matter how many times she said them. But the
words, especially daddy, continued to fill him with joy.
Of course, honey. She walked closer to the two. But youll
need to get a lot of sleep, so goodnight, baby. She kissed her daughter
on the forehead, and Aya returned it.
Night, mummy. Night, daddy.
Night. Aya bent forward and kissed him on the cheek. In response,
he pulled her into another hug, unsure if he wanted to let her go again. But,
sadly, he knew he had to.
Aya cuddled up with her quilt and the Pikachu, and closed her eyes, ready to
meet her dreams, while her parents withdrew to the living room, closing the
door behind them.
They both sat on the sofa again. Ash turned to Misty and said, Shes
so adorable. Smart, cute. Youve really done a great job with her.
Thanks. It isnt exactly the easiest job in the world.
Well, from now on Im going to be here to help.
Im glad. We can finally be a family. Well, at least as close to
one as possible. Are you sure youre going to be okay tomorrow? You havent
had much experience with kids.
Im sure you can give me a few tips. Anyway, its something
Ill have to get used to. And I cant wait. I love her so much. Shes
our little baby.
Misty thought back to one of the comments Ash made a few moments before. It
raised a great deal of confusion within her. Ash, what did you mean when
you said you didnt have Pikachu anymore?
Oh. Well about two years ago, I quit training. I left him and the others
at Oaks laboratory. I visit them a lot, but felt they were better there
than with me.
What?! But Ash, training was your life.
You were my life! Without you there, by my side, cheering me on, it didnt
feel right. When you left, my passion for it left too.
She had not only destroyed his personal life, but also his career. Her inner
anguish increased. Im sorry.
Misty, as you said, no matter how many times you say that, it isnt
going to make a different. We cant change the past few years, he
lowered his voice a little, or forget them. All we can do is move forward,
raise her together.
Another momentary silence passed over the room. So, what have you been
doing for the past while? Where are you living? she asked awkwardly.
In Viridian. Ive been working in a bar for a few months now. Im
trying to figure out what to do as a career.
You should go back to training, Ash. Thats what you have a real
talent for.
I dont think so. He paused for a minute. What about
you?
Im training to be a Pokemon doctor. Ive been doing that for
about a year and a half now, but Ive got a few years left. I work down
town at the Pokecentre. The need for doctors has increased so the centre now
has a few there, including a Nurse Joy.
That was one of your dreams, well after becoming a water Pokemon master.
Id still love to do that, but I need to pay the bills. Ayas
more important than anything. And perhaps in a couple of years I could go after
that old dream again, when she leaves on her journey.
You mean she wants to be a trainer?
Yeah. She may grow out of it, but then again she may do the same as we
did.
Id like her to follow in our footsteps, he hesitated before
continuing, at least in some ways.
Yeah, she replied with a melancholy grin. I think Im
going to turn in. I have to work early tomorrow. Do you want to stay tonight?
Its a little late to travel back to Viridian.
As long as you dont mind.
Ill get you a spare sheet and pillow, and you can make up the sofa.
Okay.
She left, and within minutes came back with the stuff she had promised.
Here you go. Im not sure if itll be too comfortable, but the only
other option is the floor.
Remember, we slept on the ground in forests for most of our teenage years.
I think a sofa will be okay. Ill see you in the morning, then.
Goodnight.
Night.
She again excited the living room, going into the bedroom. He watched her go,
while beginning to struggle with the linen.
That day had changed his life irrevocably. It had all been so surreal. One moment
he felt so alone in the world, and now he had a daughter, and she was now to
be the biggest part of his life. Also, the love of his life would always be
there, too. He wasnt sure how he felt about that fact. Yes, she had hurt
him so much, more than any other individual had. She was the one responsible
for him missing the first part of his childs life, but he was happy to
be with her again. She awakened his old happy memories of their seven years
as best friends, and those of the year they had spent as lovers - the first
time they admitted their love for one another, their first kiss, and the night
they had lost their virginity together (he blushed remembering how nervous they
both had been that first time). But it also brought back the memory of the night
she had left, too afraid to tell him she was carrying their baby. Every time
he felt the old feelings of love resurface, the contempt arose as well.
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