Hey, Ash. You going to the festival in Vermillion today? His roommate
Matt asked as him as he came out of his room.
Ash scrambled, trying to put the photographs back into their envelope.
Ah, Im not sure. I was thinking of just staying here, resting. I was working
late last night.
He looked at his friend, noticing the envelope in his hands, and sighed.
Youre not looking at those pictures again. Come on, Ash. Its been
nearly three years since she left. You havent been with a woman since
then. Youre young. You should be out there, having fun, not spending most
of your free time here. Every woman I know is vying for your attention, and
you just keep putting them off. You could have another woman every night if
you wanted to.
What if I dont want to.
Look, forget Misty. She hurt YOU. You did nothing wrong. That gives you
every right to go out there and enjoy yourself. Forget about her, and stop punishing
yourself. How about we go down to the festival and find ourselves some company?
No. Ill be okay here.
Oh, come on, Ash.
Ash was beginning to get pissed off. It seemed that all Matt tried to do was
set him up with some woman. He knew he meant well, but Ash didnt want
anyone butting into his personal life, even if they had the best of intentions.
Have you ever been in love? he asked, his voice emotionless.
No.
Well then, you dont understand. And you dont know how hard
it is to give up someone you have spent years loving. Im not ready for
another relationship. Someday, perhaps I will be, but not yet. Im not
punishing myself, but Im still in love with her, and Im not sure
that will ever stop. You may be content with a new woman every week, but Im
not that kind of guy.
Matt knew he could never win when this topic was discussed. His friend would
never give up hope for that girl, no matter how much she had hurt him.
Okay, but at least come to the festival. You do need to get out a little
more, even if it doesnt involve the opposite sex.
Alright, Ill come, Ash relented. A little fun would help,
especially if it kept his mind off her.
The streets were crowded with celebrators of all generations, rejoicing the
day, with the sun shining in the cloudless sky. It was beautiful. A smile spread
across his face, one of the few genuine ones that he had smiled over the past
few years.
Matt was off somewhere. Hed began to chat up another woman only moments
before, so Ash knew hed probably not see his friend until the next morning.
He strolled down the citys main street, dodging the partyers, wondering
what to do, when his attention was distracted by a red spot in the crowd. It
wasnt a pure red, more a deep ginger, the tone of which seemed familiar.
He looked back at the area of the colour, and saw...her.
It cant be. It cant possibly be.
He tried to concentrate on the woman, but his view was blocked by the heads
of the mass between him, her pale face one moment in his view, the next obsurred.
When she was visable, he memorized every feature of her face; the small nose,
the delicate chin, the glorious smile, the large blue-green eyes. Every feature,
every distinct feature matched those that had been engrained into his memory.
It was her. It had to be. The only differences between this woman and the girl
he loved was that she looked ever so slightly older, and her once long hair
had been cut to gently frame her face. She was more beautiful than he remembered.
She disappeared again, but this time it took several seconds before she reappeared.
This time she was talking to someone, her pink lips still keeping the smile.
He looked around, trying to find the person she was speaking to, and saw that
it was a little girl that Misty held in her arms. She was only a toddler, her
black hair no longer than Mistys. She spoke back to her, giggling. Misty
put her forehead against hers, whispering to her, before holding her closer,
the child closing her blue eyes and resting her chin upon her shoulder.
Ash came closer to the pair, walking behind Misty, caustiously making sure she
would not see him. As he approached, the child opened her eyes and gazed straight
into his. She just looked at him, a mischevious smile on her small face. She
then raised her little hand and waved at him. Confused as to what to do, he
waved back.
Misty relaxed the hug, placing the child upon the ground infront of her. The
little girl ran off into a crowd of nearby children.
He didnt know what to do. Here it was, the moment he had dreamt of for
the past three years. He now had the chance to do the one thing he wished to
- ask her why she left him. But terror rose within him. What would the truth
be? What if he had driven her away, done something to frighten her? How would
he live with the guilt that their break-up was his fault?
But there was just as much possibility that she had done something wrong. Perhaps
she had had an affair and couldn't continue to lie to him?
No, he thought. Shed never do something like that. I know she loved me
just as much as I loved her. I know shed never intentionally do something
to hurt me. No. It must be something much more. Something more important. But
she knew that Id always be there for her no matter what. I told her so.
Why couldn't she trust me?
He walked closer to her until there was only two metres between them, nothing
in their way. She still stood with her back to him, staring into the distance.
What should he do? Ask for the truth or just walk away?
M-Misty?
It took him several seconds before he realised hed spoken. It had been
unconscious. His mouth had seemed to have a life of its own.
The words, although unintended, caught the attention they had seeked. She slowly
turned, still smiling, with a cheerful yes, but her cheerfulness
dissipated when she looked at the speaker.
A-Ash! Her delicate face showed utter terror. Her mouth remained
opened, her eyes wide with shock.
It seemed that they stared at each other for an eternity, their eyes in constant
contact, never moving.
He was confused. Why would she be so scared of him? Why would she act this way?
What had he done wrong? He began to turn, ready to walk away, knowing that this
was a mistake, but she repeated his name.
Ash. Her voice sounded just as it had on the night she had left
- unstable and fearful. P-please...dont go.
His turned back to her, confusion turning to anger. You did, so why should
stay?
Im..Im so sorry, but...but I was afraid. Tears began
to form in her deep eyes.
What did I do wrong? What happened?
I...I. She looked down, unable to finish. Can we go somewhere?
Away from everyone?
He didnt know whether he wanted to be alone with her. This was the woman
who had destroyed his life, abandoned him. Did she deserve his attention? But
if she told him the truth, at least there would be no more years of wondering.
Okay, he hesitantly agreed.
Ill be back in one moment.
He watched her as she went to the side of another woman, of about the same age.
They stood talking for a minute, before Misty made her way back to him